I'm a big girl now -- 1. Wash your hands: The discipline of inner cleansing -- 2. Keepin' talkin': The discipline of constantly communicating with God -- 3. A living icon: The discipline of looking up -- 4. Greeting the day: The discipline of celebrating new moments -- 5. The party where nobody came: The discipline of gratitude for disappointments -- 6. Christ between us: The discipline of measuring our loves -- 7. Sacrificing our Isaacs: The discipline of giving back what we love -- 8. On being edited: The discipline of welcoming corrections -- 9. The God hunt: The discipline of finding God in the everyday -- 10. Prison on our backs: The discipline of choosing freedom from the need for human approval -- 11. No exists: The discipline of looking for a door in closed places -- 12. Handmaidens: The discipline of offering myself up -- 13. Vigils for nativity: The discipline of watching for Christ in the world